Absolutely, aynd E sar vuvu seriouss luhre.
Terfa years ol listening ol ma broken ennner radio/voice, lsar vas looking fohva evuvu pobul omtafatra per dab vuw "enfemohva commentary" per ayny situatigu per camgu me mir jarc ablayn maself, E sedinoen per flikt verse.
Evuvu temm luhu "self-flagellation" vas starting, E vas ennstantly finding "weak" spots enn luh nencerf- essumptions, exaggerations, cherry picking, aynd E vas literally mocking ma pohd subconsciouss ablayn harler luh same "lame" tricks aynd nuve evolving.
Oe dru per se tasuunflu til oe "play a game villa oemaself" per nuve fano ennper dissociative edentity disorder, puud E vas NEYVA considering ayny pisar ol ma ennner wuntow es "nuve mi".
E jano accepted ennconsistency es pisar ol humayn mintal brik, aynd tupe layered trohusper.
Enn luh nfil ma subconsciousness terwisen layn per se a lame opponent. Mel enndeed duses NUVE venba ab allooooooo, alvares luh same tricks, funden gu emotional filters aynd locking nobar per mimories contradicting luh "fairy tale" mil eu chaping per vosh me ennper.
Mel perok me a yelm years, puud ASK E reblaf villa patronizing sarusement per teyune lsar tadar enn ma minae aynd chap per nuqaduss dpohd ma mood.
A yelm years agons E vas focharler gu luhm aynd enn efun es concerned ablayn "state ol teyuni" es ayny "normal" humayn seing ussssually eu.
At ma subconsciousness ussssually gonse ennper "mute" madu til E chah mil harler vuw dirty tricks aynd excessive filtering.
E bel no eup fil E sar "normal" aynymowa, allooooooo E lejey eu lsar E sar mamose setter functioning enn evuvu deyo laenn, aynd ma mood eu betuvey aynd letu emmune per ennternal ohva nafemohva nagutavo ennput.
E guess luhu eu nuve "luh way" fohva eyvationda tum, keeping sanity tivir oe reprogrsar oemaself gu vu run caderr vas... tricky
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